i have come to the conclusion that yes, i am. i cant make anyone i care about happy, i cant have anyone and i dont deserve it. any of it. i know it would be easier if i just wasnt around. it would just be easy because no one cares. i know no one does… if i dyed right now no one would know and if they did no one would care, i would just be another smudge on the pavement and then my memory would fade away into the nothingness that my life is and forever will be. even now, who the hell would take the time to read all this, i just want you to know im sorry for not being good enough, i never was and i diluted myself into thinking i could actually be, but now i know.